Abut mi myself and i

sian~~~zzZzzzZzz

2004-09-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

ok... 2day mi abit better mood... so my blog will be abit better.... hmm.... ok... 2day started of the day wif a bad cough.... in fact mi still coughing n feeling giddy lohz.... dan got attire check.... so funy.... at first i was standing wif my arms folded dan the teacher look at mi in a weird weird manner... so i thot she thinks i am v rude in folding my arms lahz... so i stand straight wif my hands beside mi.... dan she started laughing at mi.... haha.... dunnoe y she laugh oso... weird cher... haha... dan after tt go back class study study... haha... dan told my dear dear(er er) abut my dream yesterday dan she jealous.... cuz...... mi dreamt of some1 else... hahaha.... so funny.... dan as usual we play like crazy... but den 2day got maths test... dan i dunnoe how 2 do.... so sad.... cuz when i was doing i was feeling real unwell... dan cannot think properly... but luckily not counted de... haha... so nvm... dan went wastmall wif li ping n wei xiang n kai yu.... so funny.... we tok stupid lame thingy.... haha... dan after tt we went 2 ah ta's house... cuz she wanna go home take money 2 eat.... cuz ah... she v stress n depress this few days... haha... dan after tt we went back westmall.... dan go food court cuz tt wx wanna do hw.... dan sae my real dear dear...... so happy............. but.... nth 2 happy abut lahz... cuz think it has been 6 days since i hear his voice lohz.... saddd.... mi wanna go crazy liaoz... hahaha... v tong ku de u noe.... haha... but nvm.... at least got sms... although they sae sms is nth... but it is already alot 2 mi... cuz.... its better dan nv tok like the past few days.... hmmm.... dan 2molo got sj.... haiz... dunnoe wad will happen again... haiz... every week now go sj is either sian or got smth happen.... haiz... dunnoe lahz.... maybe juz go 4 the sake of seeing some1.... hehehezzzz.... mi like siao.... ok... i will control myself if not ah ta going 2 suffer again... haha... hmmm.... sian... later muz study again le... haiz.... sian.... k lohz.... 2 day write until here bahz...

learnt 2 look on the bright side of life

2004-09-16T03:23:00.000-07:00

ok.... 2day is oso another not so happy day.... cuz i am sick... but..... mi already learnt 2 look on the bright side of life.... i wun cry eaily again.... i haf learnt how 2 control myself frm crying.... but i realli couldnt take it anymore when........ haiz.... i dunnoe.... wad should i do now.... how i wish i can go back 2 where god is now.... ok.... 2day ah.... nth much lahz... juz tt during social studies mi suddenly not feeling v well lohz... haiz... ya... dan hmmm.... mi had a nice time toking my problems 2 frenz lohz..... v happy tt at least there is still pple hu care 4 mi.... real touched... thought no1 will bother abut mi anymore.... hmm... ok.... now abut luv thingy..... some ask mi do tis some ask mi do tt.... actualli onli 3 person noes wad going on lahz... dan.... i am real confused lohz.... haiz... maybe people will juz change back 2 their old self....? haiz.... my frenz sae i v stupid.... holding onto a person tt already dun like mi anymore.... i oso dunnoe 2 believe or not.... i believe in him alot... haiz... dunnoe wad 2 sae anymore... hmm.... tis few days oso v happy playing in class wif my dear dear(xue er) hehe... we like small kids like tt... haha.... at least there is still frenz hu will cheer mi up.... thx.... ok... mi will end here n go eat medicine....

stupid!!!!

2004-09-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

stupid.... 2day another stupid day... i am giving up..... i dunnoe wad did i do again... haiz.... its like.... people r changing..... wad they use 2 do in the past they no longer do it now.... they use 2 be sweet caring loving n always there 4 mi.... but now.... people turn nasty dun even care n 4getting abut pple.... haiz... i am at a lost..... i have already commited my self into tis relationship, tried 2 show much care n concern, willing 2 give my time but guess all tis is juz one sided.... wadeva it is.... i dun wish 2 think abut this relationship... let god decide 4 mi.... maybe all he wan 2 do now is study... so be it... maybe we r juz meant 2 be frenz.... no matter wad it is.... my heart 4 him will nv change.... even its one sided i will still luv him..... there is realli nth i can do now.... cry oso cry finish le... say wad i wanted 2 sae le.... do wad i can le.... haiz... another thing.... can ani1 in this world tolerate the fact tt there is another ger understand or noe more secrets wif her bf better dan she does.... ??? realli wonder,.... nvm... i wont cry animore.... i will treasure my tears.... haiz... end of year coming le.... muz study like hell again.... k k.... go study le....

sad life

2004-09-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

haiz... ok... come 2 write my blog.... wad 2 sae lehz... haiz.... 2day is a sad sad sad day 4 mi.... practically no1 understands mi... haiz.... dan... ya.... mi v confuse over somethings.... mi dunnoe wad he is thinking.... i realli realli am at a lost.... so many unhappy things happening 2 mi now.... nobody 2 trust.... nobody 2 tok my problems 2 .... its such a pain.... but hu cares.... wad does it make a relationship work.... 2 mi... its not onli juz abut saying the 3 words... its much more dan tt... a relationship requires love, support, time, commitment, care n concern frm ur partner.... its oso not onli a relationship tt can tok through sms or on msn onli.... ita abut toking n hearing ur partner's voice but do u understand? doubt so.... haiz.... nvm.... guess i am expecting too much again... cant blame... i am a virgo.... exams coming le... every1 is studying... maybe i shuld let everything rest n study? i oso dunnoe wad 2 do.... struggling 2 survive 2nite... hope i wont wale up at 4 n cry again..... kk... tts all 4 2day...